GILBERT, jeremy andrew

[jeremy andrew gilbert]

JEREMY ANDREW GILBERT
FIFTEEN -- HUMAN -- STEVEN R. MCQUEEN

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people say talking about stuff helps, so here we go. my name is jeremy gilbert. I have been breathing for fifteen years, sometimes it feels like a lot longer, other times it feels a lot less. for my fifteen years walking on this earth, I sometimes think I have seen and been through far too much. but in reality, I know this is the tip of the iceberg and that is a very daunting and scary prospect. I live with my older sister, elena and my aunt jenna. my parents died a few months ago. just writing it, even now, after everything, just seems surreal. then again sometimes I can barely remember the person I used to be before we lost them. lost them, weird phrase that. like maybe one day we will find them again... but we won't. I guess you could say I haven't dealt with all this is the best of ways, I turned to drugs as an escapism. all the while being in my own personal hell. I drifted from my family, staying at home became unbearable and yeah, I guess elena and me are close. but we both have secrets. and jenna, well sometimes she just tries too hard, she'll never be the strict parent type. I guess I don't make things easy for her though... I knew starting on the drugs wasn't the way to deal with this mess. to deal with grief and the emptiness that lingered after the death of my parents. in some ways, I'm glad they can't see me now. but drugs brought me to vicki. at first I guess I was just a guy who provided her with what she wanted, no one important. a means to an end. but we became close, vicki was the only one who, even though for fractions of seconds, could make things better for me again. although we were always high, wastes of lives heading no where fast... she became my everything in a world where it felt like I had nothing. but that arrogant jerk tyler lockwood was constantly getting in the way. call me jealous, because I am, but really, what did she see in him? I hate that guy. but then things started to change, vicki got attacked by some sort of animal. I dunno, it was weird. and thank god she was ok... but nothing has been the same since. I mean, my feelings for her haven't changed, but she's different, in a way I can't describe. and I've got a horrible feeling that this isn't the last of change in our lives, or mystic falls.

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MEG -- UK -- TWENTY

[victoria mae donovan]